[this is a roleplay account]
No El, you know she’s leaving cause of me. If I wasn’t here and you met her… I can’t help but think. -crosses her arms across her chest and hangs her head- I feel like such an epic bitch right now. I’ve never been in a more fucked up situation in my whole life. I feel like this place is making me crazy. My hearts legit torn in two, and now I’m ruining some other girls life by not choosing fast enough. -kicks her foot a bit, scuffing the ground-
That’s not true, I’ve thought about it. I didn’t have the balls to say it to her but I just can’t see myself with her and yes, even if you weren’t around. So you don’t have to choose now, or soon even. Because even if you did, I still wouldn’t pick her. So it isn’t your fault, it’s mine for not feeling the way about her as she apparently does about me. -offers his arms for a hug-
-buries her face in her hands and groans- It wasn’t supposed to be like this. -sighs- I feel like the more things I do, the more people I hurt. I really just… can’t seem to do anything right. -runs her hand through her hair- So she’s actually leaving because of me? God, really? Could my life get any more fucked?
-frowns, regretting saying anything; No, and don’t even think that. She’s leaving because of me, and because she doesn’t think that we can be friends. So don’t you dare blame yourself for this, because you already have enough on your plate. She doesn’t have to leave, she wants to. And it is not because of you.
Wait what do you mean? You did what? She did what?
-sighs, shoving his hands in his pockets- She pretty much said I broke her heart and that we couldn’t be friends while I was with you, and I said I’m not with you. And she kissed me and said she was going to get transferred.
I figured I’d tell you about this kissing me part ‘cause if someone else told you they’d be probably say *nasally impression of a girlish voice* “Elliott toootally kissed Liza.” So. Yeah.
Go forth than, and feel better. -looks a little sullen- But uh, tell me it’s not going to be weird now.
What do you mean? Liza being out?
That’s already a whole shit ton of weird. I think she kind of gave me a ultimatum or whatever earler and I..didn’t pick her.
-shrugs- Hm understandable.
I’d invite you as well but I don’t think drunken mess Elliott is all that enjoyable. You’re always invited by default though.
Thanks but I’m not feeling too hot. I’m gonna have to pass.
Go forth than, and feel better. -looks a little sullen- But uh, tell me it’s not going to be weird now.
Whatever Elliott. -cups his face- Just know, you deserve better. -leans in and kisses him delicately but passionately, tears threatening to fall- Goodbye. -begins to walk away.
-stands there, blushing and dumbfounded as she walks away and then walks after her, grabbing her arm- For what it’s worth, and that wouldn’t be much, I’m beyond sorry I couldn’t make things easy and pick you. -drops her arm, turning in the opposite direction-
Why not? So I can sit here and watch as a girl who doesn’t deserve you gets you?
I am far too sober for this conversation and definitely not drunk enough to tell you what I want to.
Don’t..do that.
Do what?
Get transferred.
Yeah. Whatever. I’m just going to hide in my room for the time being. Maybe I’ll talk to my doctor about getting transferred. I’ll see you later Elliott.
Don’t..do that.
Elliott, it doesn’t matter if you’re not worth it because to me, you fucking are. You’d never be my second choice. I’d never sit there and pit you against another guy until I figured out who I wanted. You should know you deserve better than that.
-shrugs- Maybe I do, but I can’t help how I feel. I don’t want you to wait for to get let down, my pessimistic self assuming I will. You deserve better than to wait around for someone who… I can’t, you know, I hate to say what I’m about to say. Just believe me, you deserve better than to wait.
